I have never been a comfortable in front of the camera type girl. Actually I have never been a girl who likes any extra attention shining my way. Happy Birthday songs? Cue tomato face, funny faces and total and utter embarrassment. I am charmingly awkward (I like to think it’s pretty darn charming) when it comes to those extra attention public situations. Having kids and this here blog has pushed me so far outside of my comfort zone, in a good way. When my kids are with me, I’m like my usual self (still with a side of awkward, it’s cool we all are) in front of the camera – all natural and cool (cool is pushing it). When I’m alone and the camera is pointed at me, I feel sorta lost and then my charmingly awkwardness pops out and I’m all “what do I do with my hands?!”. For someone who actually isn’t the biggest fan of extra attention, having a blog is sorta a crazy thing (least it sometimes feels crazy) – I think back and wonder how I even got here, all the time. But now that I am here, it’s been one of the best exercises for pushing me out of that comfort zone – among many other amazing reasons (as humble as I always am about this space, I am so proud of all it’s brought my way and how it’s grown from a hobby-to a place I love coming to-to a job I love).
These pictures Chris took of us on the weekend – are some of my favorite photos to date. I really love that though my comfort zone is behind the camera (or hiding off behind a tree) I am forced in front, because of the blog (I don’t want to be that hidden voice, and sometimes intentionally not sharing certain aspects like my face is as bad as over sharing) and because of the kids. I am happy to have been pushed so far out of my comfort zone that I’m able to share thoughts and passions, with so many amazing people – and sometimes feel pretty comfortable doing it now. I am often very proud and happy my kids will be able to look back and not know how much I didn’t like attention, because they have so many pictures with me in it. Moral of the story: push past that comfort zone – it might be awkwardly holding you back!
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