August 2013

EVERYDAY MOMENTS : 34/52 – how naturally they walk the busy city streets.

It was bound to happen, but watching them walk on busy streets is so adorably bittersweet to me. They know to move to the right when people are coming, that if something is on the sidewalk we don’t touch it, and to stop at all driveways and streets (I’m always right there with them). It’s bittersweet that they have reached ages where they know what’s going on and acually remember all my crazy “no don’t touch that, we don’t know what it is” talks. Basically most moments with kids are bittersweet when you all of a sudden realize how fast you have made it to this specific parenting moment.

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· August 29, 2013 · in Daily,The Everyday



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back to school, mom and daughter, one on one time with kids, kids street style, stylish toddler

back to school, mom and daughter, one on one time with kids, kids street style, stylish toddler

back to school, mom and daughter, one on one time with kids, kids street style, stylish toddler

back to school, mom and daughter, one on one time with kids, kids street style, stylish toddler

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TOP: c/o Cauliflower Kids – TIGHTS: c/o American Apparel – SHOES: Zara – HAIRBOW: DIY

Next week marks back to school, but not for my wee girl. King will be hobnobbing with the other senior kindergarteners, while Harlow and I get tons of quality girly time in. I am pretty heart broken and actually get all sad and mushy just thinking of King not being here with us everyday. This summer has been really really great and if I’m being honest, also really hard (but the great far outweighs the rough) the thought of it coming to a close is a hard pill for me to swallow. But on the other hand I am also excited to focus my energy on Harley, and have time to think more about my epic recipe. King got a lot of ‘me and him time’, that short year and a half before Harlow was born. Harlow, really hasn’t gotten that same one on one time – other then the 2 hours a day last school year (we blinked and it was over), this year its just us allll day. She is probably going to miss King as much as I expect to, and I know she is wishing she was also in school – but I am happy to have one more year with her, and hopefully she will eventually fall in love with our ‘me and her time’ (after that first week of sads pass us by).

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· August 28, 2013 · in Daily,Little Style



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Not my ex, or Chris’ ex (we don’t really have those) – but The Ex. It’s probably like a fair if you live elsewhere, but when the Canadian National Exhibition hits Toronto, it’s called The Ex. It was our first time taking the kids, actually Chris and I haven’t been for about 8 years or so. It pretty much blew the kids minds, they were jumping-up-and-down stuttering their words, excited. And that was just from setting their eyes on the place, once they got to the rides? My goodness the happiness on their faces and the sequels of joy, Chris and I ate those moments right up – we pretty much live for their happiness. Instead of going early in the morning like we usually would, we risked it and went around our usual dinner time (think, seniors hours). We wanted the kids to have a chance to see the lights on all the rides as the sun went down – the nighttime is such an exciting time for them, because they rarely ever get to see the world by moonlight. I was even able to find the fair food unicorn, good healthy food at Wild Child’s Kitchen – vegan and mostly gluten free, I will be dreaming about their nachos for weeks to come (I have a post half written about this, what probably sounds like a new diet). It was a great (and perfectly overcast) day/evening, totally worth the crowds and all the blown dollars.

*I meant to post this yesterday, but Monday really took a toll on me – I was rendered almost totally useless under her spell. Also I wanted to take a quick moment to say a huge thank you and a big “wow you all made me feel so not alone,” for your words and comments on this post.

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· August 27, 2013 · in Daily,Real Life



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*Chris has been working like crazy so we stole him away from work, went to the beach for a bit then out for dinner before he headed back to work. It was a really, really nice Dad break.

Matching father and son swim trunks c/o onia. NOTE: this is not a sponsored post, but those trunks they are luxurious and awesome (personal opinion).

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· August 22, 2013 · in Daily,Our Style,Real Life



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Sitting down to write this or even vocalize this was in it self, pretty overwhelming. Explaining those thoughts that consume my overactive brain and sometimes become the root of my anxiety is/was so hard. Like so many other things, it all makes perfect sense in my head – but since the thoughts are always in my head, to get them out and make actual clear sense is another story.

Every few weeks I consume myself with thoughts of the future; dreams, hopes, wants, all of these things. Not material wants or dreams, but thoughts about what I should be doing with my time (the time not spent raising my kiddos, because that will always be my number one dream). See this is where it gets really hard to explain. With back to school for King right around the corner (sad mom panda), thoughts of next September (when both kids will be heading to school) creep in my mind. On top of making myself extremely sad thinking about the fact that they have grown up so fricking fast, I have a muddle of thoughts about what I should be doing for myself and for an income when that time comes. See I always have these thoughts that there is something I should be doing, but my issue is I can’t pin point it. There so many dreams, so many things I feel I should be doing – I can’t narrow them down enough to figure it out. It’s also very hard to explain the SHOULD feeling.

I have tons of experience and knowledge in one field (and assumed I would go back to it at some point), have the skills and love for others, have serious entrepreneurial fever, plus a passion for things entirely separate. Having kids and being a stay at home Mom has made me a much more confident and self assured Brandy, it has also given me so much time to think and has opened my eyes to more passions and skills that I didn’t know existed in me before. Many days I feel like the jack of all trades and the master of none, but am constantly consuming my thoughts with how I can be the master of a couple things fulfilling all my dreams and needs in the process. It’s very hard to explain.

I feel like the natural way to do things in life (crazy metaphor coming up) is to pick one item from the garden and make the best meal you can possibly make. My issue has always been that I can’t decide on just one item, I love and am pretty great at cooking so many of them but I just can’t figure out how to make them all go together in one epic recipe. Do you ever get this overwhelming feeling that is created by your own thoughts, hopes and dreams? I know I will get there, eventually and will probably continue to change and grow along the way – but not seeing it clearly right now, makes me a little crazy. I think I just have this natural ability to constantly be dreaming and scheming, and overwhelming myself in the process.

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· August 21, 2013 · in Daily,Dear Diary,Real Life



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EVERYDAY MOMENTS : 33/52 – that late afternoon, after dinner outside playtime – the kind summer does best.

It’s the calm playtime, usually the playtime that is filled with imagination – I am going to miss summer evenings of laying out playing and just talking.

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· August 20, 2013 · in Daily,The Everyday



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SHIRT:H&M – TANK: c/o American Apparel – JEANS:H&M – SHOES:H&M (last fall) – BACKPACK: c/o American Apparel

Who’s excited for school to start? This boy is, very very excited. I love that school is still fun and exciting, and the idea of meeting new friends, being in a new classroom and learning (okay having fun) all day long isn’t scary even for a moment. Two more weeks and this boy will be in full day Senior Kindergarten (in Ontario we have Junior and Senior Kinder) – the thought excites him like crazy, but makes me sad and my heart ache a little just thinking about it. I am not ready to be without him for a full day, it will of course be wonderful to spend so much one on one time with my youngest – but boy will I miss my boy. But moving on, holding onto my sap and sads till it’s so full I might burst (the first day back, probably).

King is so excited for school, and some of his reasons almost take away my Mom sadness:

I get to skip nap when I’m at school. I get to meet new friends and probably say hi to old ones. I’m going to learn french “excuse moi” like that. I’m going to be gone all day at school just like daddy when he works. Soon I’ll be five and then a real big kid almost a teenager, right mommy? I’ll be in a grade older so I’ll be stronger and faster and smarter.

We have two more weeks (give or take) left of summer and I am trying my best to soak them up, trying to ignore the rest of the distracting world and just eat every last tiny cute second up.

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· August 19, 2013 · in Daily,Little Style



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Harley was born to cuddle, I’m not sure how else to say it – cause she just was. She needs cuddles to wake up from a snooze, when she’s cold, sad, sleepy, happy and even hungry – cuddles are always her cure. King is different, he is active and doesn’t have as much time for cuddles with his old Mom. His cuddles are strong, fierce and quick. He squeezes so much love into them in such a short period of time then he’s off, his imagination takes over and he has somewhere else he needs to be. I crave and need both types of cuddles, the tender-long-several-times-a-day-cuddles and the strong-fierce-I-love-you-so-much-can-you-tell-by-how-hard-I-squeeze-cuddles complete my day and set my heart to a calm easy state. It’s funny how two kids in the same family can be such polar opposites (about some things, not all) and somehow both those opposites, together are exactly what you need.

*This picture, I was trying to cuddle King, he squeezed the dickens outta me and then happily let his sister push him out of the way. Also it’s an iphone snap, I broke my own personal rule and double shared on here and IG – whoops.

PS. Cauliflower Kids just released their Fall 2013 line. It’s super cute, a little stripey and a lota artsy – check it out!

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· August 16, 2013 · in Daily,Real Life



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